Friday, July 19, 2013

Personal Reflections on Having A Heavy Heart

Dear Daddy,

It's a beautiful day Daddy. A lot of things to do today for your kingdom.

As I grow longer in serving You Father, even doing the laundry can a service to You Lord.

I'm not my usual self this morning Dad, due to my cough and phlegm. My energy is not really the same. But I know if seek it inside me I can still harness that inner strength.

Also thank you Daddy for the gospel and readings today. It is another way for me to get guidance and reflection.

These past days Daddy, I have been really carrying this burden in my heart towards Mamai. I'm having really a hard time trying to be patient with her. As well as on how to understand her situation.

The worst part is, she doesn't talk to me that much anymore. Or I just got tired of listening to her complaints about how hard her pregnancy is, as well is watching and take care of Ellie.

I try to ask for her cooperation but hardly able to get even her attention. I no longer even get encouragement from her.

I'm not sure if I can keep being patient with her. Especially on attending to her needs alone while forsaking my needs as well.

Dad, I really need encouragement from You. As well as enlighten on what to do. Furthermore I am really doing pretty bad financially. I am gaining more and more debts, instead of growing my savings.

My health is not that vibrant. I'm gaining more and more weight. I can't be consistent with my prayer time. I don't even have a deep relationship with myself.

I badly need your grace and guidance right now Daddy.