Tired, Confused, About to become Unhappy

Dear Daddy,

I never thought that choosing to be an entrepreneur would be this hard. At first, it all seemed to be easy. I mean, it looked easy, but now I know that it's far from being easy.

I just had another fight with my wife. At the start, I thought it was another issue, but in the end it still went back to the common root cause - MONEY. Though, I know it's more than just the issue of money, but it still contributes a very large factor. Without a steady source income of salary, more and more of our worries pile up.

Is money really that important?

Ever since I resigned from my previous job, our "fights" became more intense and more hurting. I'm not even sure if I gave value to listening to what she has to say, or was I just forcing my own opinion.

Right now, I just want to give up. Go look for a new job, and become a unhappy employee again. But because of pride, I could not afford to that. It will not only make me look stupid, but it will discourage a lot of businessmen wanna-be's as well.

Why can't I just be hardworking, kind, honest, God-willing, faithful, rich, patient, and humble right now?

Most of all, I feel so helpless in solving my wife's complains about her pregnancy. Instead of being very happy of our coming angel, she’s miserable than ever. Just because of the mixed feelings she feels, and the constant vomiting, she's become so unhappy.

The sad part is that our relationship is getting really affected, and I'm about to become unhappy as well. Our relationship has always been very co-dependent, now that she is unhappy; I can't stop myself from being the same.

What should I do Lord? What should I do with my wife? Need your guidance and strength.

I know you haven't left me Lord. Not a single day did I ever become hungry. I rode a taxi most of the time. I still ate delicious food. My parents and family's health is very okay. We ate more than 3 times a day. Yet I still am emotionally unhappy.

Please help Lord......
 
RJB