Today has really been a tough struggle for me.
The main reason that I have been move to do a personal reflection today is because it has been really struggle for me today.
At early morning while reading the gospel, praying, and having my usual habit of visualization I suddenly treated my wife with much coldness and anger. The main reason is not because of her, but because of the problems that I carried on my back. Which are mostly financial and personal issues of my life.
I’m sick and tired of the “same-old-sins” that I was committing. I was tired of me always the things that I needed to do, and didn’t even make any single step to accomplish it. It was even worse that I ended up not only getting angry to my wife, but shouting to her as well.
My wife got deeply hurt and out of love for her I realized the stupid mistake I made. I was hurting her for reasons that were my own doing.
So I apologized and comforted her with kisses and hugs while she was crying. After that we had lunch together and enjoyed each other’s company again.
But after washing the dishes, instead of focusing on the business stuff that I needed to finish I choose to lie on the couch and watch Television for an entire 2-3 hours. Another waste of time in which really is the most important asset of all time.
Worse, my mother is starting to think lowly of me. I think it’s because it has already been 8 months since I left my job and until I have no million to show her. In fact, I can’t even show her thousands, for I merely have enough to survive for a few days more.
I truly need to get back on my feet. I need to really rethink my life if I want to be true successful entrepreneur. Also I really need to do my personal reflections everyday. Only by really understanding myself will I be able get over this challenge in my financial and personal life.
To address my financial problems, I have to really address my personal struggles first, before I can address any other area of my life.
Hope to achieve this one day.
RJB
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